The Looking for Something. spouse.

Assalamualaikum , just shut up, hold your thoughts and listen to mine

you're talkin about love? yeah i hate it too.

aku suka layan lagu jiwang karat, because everytime im watching tv, my brother will bother me with his jiwang karat 80an songs, it's getting worse as he pulls the speaker's wire from the tv and connect it to his phone and he will be like "thank you for coming to my concert nigga". that kind of song genre bind with my DNA accidentally. but talkin about love in reality, mmmm

every second time i log in my twitter, my TL is like a love board. mannnn, i know that i dont have a boyfriend. jealousy is in the air. my friends on the TL will be like "thanks sayang, ayang you ketat ketat<3", some of them praised their happy monthversary moments, posting pictures with their couples, ukir nama kekasih kat tangan sampai berdarah darah, lagi bodoh kalau salah eja. i was like

she got that expressions that worth billions than kristen stewart.

some ego freaks and muka ketat people will be like "who needs love? i can survive and live my life without love," well sembanggg lebih. hahahah. we all need love yawwww, tell me how you gonna live without Allah's mercy.

when my neighbours saws me, selalunya mak cik makcik surau always questioning my mom about me, "hey dah ada menantu ke?",my mom was like " she's freakin 18 --.--" she loves that question because maybe somebody want to propose me and go for merisik. hahahaha but mom, please lemme look for my spouse by myself.

i love my name, Jannah. there was a guy trying to know more about me, he was like, "hey are you Jannah (paradise) ? because i wanna get into you," that islamic pick up line just made me laughed my ass off,ohh and i didnt accept him because my father will kick me in the air if i do. search for Allah before searching for your spouse. <3 Allah knows the best.

im easy fall in love with somebody, like seriously everytime i see somebody(s) tweet con, or dp something or maybe walking pass infront of me, and the guy wearing jubah, muka suci, comel,. hahahah

when i see cute boys, i will renung dia orang sampai sebelah mata pancit

that's y i love to follow my father to the mosque every friday nights at Setiawangsa, you can see so many Tahfiz guys, and i am melting at the shoe racks watching them. hahahah but i dont forget my purpose to be there, pergi sana sebab nak dengar ceramah, tapi sebelum tu nak cuci mata lahhh ayahhh.

but we have to remember to lower our gaze. they were too cute, but Allah is infinity cuter than them. oh yeah

every time i decide to have a boyfriend, my siblings and my mom will laugh at me. my father? well hell no. he will reject my opinion before i manage to open my mouth. my father was a strict man, when he is getting older, he is easily be tame and nice. hahaha, i still remember, when the first time i have a phone, he warns me not to have a boyfriend and no boys in my contact list or he will burn my phone alive. 

i kinda jealous where my cousins have their own partner. i was standing, and crying inside because im not pretty like they do. when we gather, we will talk about our life and boys. oh come on, tak de benda lain ke T.T they all have boyfriend, and me, mmm i am the last virgin. they gain boyfriend since they were 12 something, and im 18, but still have nothing. hahaha, 

sometimes i have to lie,i told them that i have a boyfriend too.

tapi Allah nak tunjukkan yg berbohong tu tak elok, jadi ditakdirkan abang aku lalu kat sebelah aku bila aku cakap macam tu. and he was like, " who the hell wants her, she dont even float in the water (fat) "

my brother is a butthead sometimes, this make me sad guys. i am not fat. i guess. hahaha, seriously guys, please dont lie, telling that you have a boyfriend when you dont even have one. Allah trying to show me that i am wrong. this situation happened because He wants me to realize that I have Him always by my side. just be truthful, it is worth to be honest. and please dont cosider yourself as a lonely person when you dont have a partner, nuhhh uhhhh. Allah save a perfect one who deserve your big heart. :)

susah nak cari laki kalau asyik ikut cakap orang, itu tak boleh, ini tak sesuai. my mom gonna make sure i will get marry before 28. --.--

 my mom doesnt care who i will choose as long as i am happy and that guy will guide me to the straight path and increasing my imaan, bring me to Jannah, have a big house, big car, private island. ohhh that's too much. As long as the guy that i choose have special link between him and Him, im happy. <3 owhh, tak payah lah yang hensem hensem sangat. nanti orang asyik nak sambar je, dapat mcm Kim Woo Bin pun dah okey dah. hahaha

lolz, aku tak minat kpop. aku tahu mcm gitu gitu je. 

my lil sis and i adore the same guy, haishhhh. it's getting worst as she mocked me " who wants a girl like you anyway ", idgf about it.i know that she was joking. i am a fabulus unicorn. everybody love me. i dont know whether she hates me or nope, im being a freakin bij everytime i am with her, she hates when we have to be together,

last night, when we are otw to a restaurant somewhere in pekan Rawang, suddenly Yuna's song is on air. how i love the Rescue song, the beat is like a jungle beat. so i was like getting crazy, and i told my mom this song is Yuna's, and my father turn the volume up. i started getting crazy and dance like an african child at the back seat. my lil sis, she makes the 'wth' face. oh how i loved to annoy my lil sis. 

the contexts of love is very wide. it's not only for your spouse. the best love that you will ever gain is the love between you and Allah. He never disappoints to those who really looking for His mercy and His love. His love is infinity and zero contradiction.

 if you cant find your spouse yet, that's mean you have to mend your love between you and Him, and your parents. yeah, du'a(prayer) of a mother to her God is like a bullet that shot from the ground into the sky, and always able go through the heavens layer. our parents du'a is powerful, so dont waste your love to a stranger guys, love them before they leave you to another life :)

The Screwed entry --.--

Assalamualaikum

im gonna leave this blog, but just for a while because i got PLKN in this April at Selama, Perak.

 i was hoping for Sarawak. aku baru je nak bajet bajet jet lag pergi kem naik flight. hahahaa, But afrina make fun of me, "ain't nobody got jet lag while goin to sarawak, hahaha ", afrina been to Sarawak for so many time because she lived there before. but who cares anyway niggs. hahah

some of my friends got group 3, that's not the problem, the problem is how to change the societies preception and their thoughts about group 3, they like to scare their kids ass off and the youth about PLKN group 3. hey listen, Allah choose them to be in group 3 for a reason mannnn, He doesnt put them in that particular group for fun, maybe some might say "kenapa aku kne campak group 3? takut siaaa, mesti ada kesalahan ni T.T" , bila check check balik, mmm memang takde perubahan. ke group 3 lah kau kena pergi. hahaha, most of the budak baik got this dilemma. think positive babe, if you know that your are nice, you never done wrong or get into trouble in school, Allah choose you to be in that group because maybe you can change the other participants from other bad ass school. friends can change friends. that is the way of life as a teenage. just think positive mann.  Allah never leave the good ones, He will always protect you. 

enough with the PLKN, my iphone 3gs just broke down last week.

Ya Allah i love taht phone so much.

that is the most expensive that my father ever bought for me T,T there is some idiot setting begging me to upgrade the software to ios 6. after i download it, the phone restart, it keep on restart again and again until the battery kong. huhuhuu, and i was like what the hell is happening to u bij! wake up! i love you. so i decide to restore it back just like new from the factory using itunes in my lappy, but it takes time babe, not an hour but 30 hours nigga. i just left my lappy with the phone just like that., because it doesnt worth waiting laaaa, so i go to sleep and let the lappy do his things, 

at 4 a.m. i was awake., i dunno. i just awake by myself with Allah permission, then i saw my father standing. he always wake up for qiamulail anyway, but he stood still in that time and stares at my lappy for a while.

the way he stand, hahaha. he wear kain pelikat and clothes. he's not nude like that boy above. haha

he stares at the laptop and nagged about it to my sleeping mom. he was like " why the hell my daughter sleep infront the laptop without turning it off? " my mom replied, "u just turn it off laaaa, it wasting the electric bills" . well im still on the floor lying, i decide to not make a move because my mom will ask me about it and hit my ass because wasting the electric bills. but im not closing my eyes, i just watch my father keep standing still, my eyes is sepet. they will never know whether am i asleep or what. because the size of my eyes when i open it and when im asleep is just the same. but my father keep on standing and stare to it, after that he spoke up " mmm, i dont know how to turn it off ", hahah. i was about to laugh but it's kinda not nice dude, so he just turn off the plug. and go for his qiamulail. 

that morning, i gave up. i just leave the phone just like that. since my phone broke down, i having a fight with my lil sis like almost everyday because we chase for our mom's phone. kira dapat check whatsapp dengan we chat pun jadilaahhh T.T

that feeling when i approach my mom's phone earlier than my sister. sorry lil sis, you lose

that kind of situation last for a week where my mom bought a new phone for me after i got back home from ceramah KPP (driving lesson). she bought me lenovo. just a cheap phone. that phone is hecka slow mannn, but Alhamdulillah, thanks mom. as long as i can connect with afrina and my other niggs friends then its okay :)

i was like ohh mom, u dont have to buy me new phone, as long as i have you im blessed, hahahaa

my father decide to bring my iphone to be repaired. my mom doesnt like to repair things, she likes to throw away all the junks rather than repair it. but the guys, is a jimat person. not like tha ladies. my father turned a deaf ear, and go to the phone shop next day

on the next day, when my parents arrived home from work, my father approach my lil sis and give my iphone to her. i can see his sad face. so i sat in the kitchen, and i ask him about my iphone problems. he told me and just keep scratching his head. i was like, what happen to my father. well he told me, repairing that phone is like buying a new one. after listen to that words, my mom starts to nagg like always because it is kinda wasting money. but my father didnt finish his words yet, he told that, the repairing cost 50 ringgit, and he got love letter from JPJ and the Police. maybe he is so excited to repair my phone sampai main hentam parking motor. hahaha, saman jpj 100, saman polis 100. i was laughing hardly with my mom. its not that rude because my father laugh about it too so, we just laugh la. 

i dunno what to write for this entry because i kinda screwed up, with the PLKN, with the SPM result, the driving lesson, IPTA. maybe i will get my ass in the IPTA for the second intake because my PLKN ends about at the end of june. i dont wanna be afrina's junior. uhhh uhhh, thats not gonna happen in my unicorn wurldz. hahaha. so thats all. i have to feed my kitties in front of the house. goodbye then, Assalamualaikum. peace <3