The Looking for Something. spouse.

Assalamualaikum , just shut up, hold your thoughts and listen to mine

you're talkin about love? yeah i hate it too.

aku suka layan lagu jiwang karat, because everytime im watching tv, my brother will bother me with his jiwang karat 80an songs, it's getting worse as he pulls the speaker's wire from the tv and connect it to his phone and he will be like "thank you for coming to my concert nigga". that kind of song genre bind with my DNA accidentally. but talkin about love in reality, mmmm

every second time i log in my twitter, my TL is like a love board. mannnn, i know that i dont have a boyfriend. jealousy is in the air. my friends on the TL will be like "thanks sayang, ayang you ketat ketat<3", some of them praised their happy monthversary moments, posting pictures with their couples, ukir nama kekasih kat tangan sampai berdarah darah, lagi bodoh kalau salah eja. i was like

she got that expressions that worth billions than kristen stewart.

some ego freaks and muka ketat people will be like "who needs love? i can survive and live my life without love," well sembanggg lebih. hahahah. we all need love yawwww, tell me how you gonna live without Allah's mercy.

when my neighbours saws me, selalunya mak cik makcik surau always questioning my mom about me, "hey dah ada menantu ke?",my mom was like " she's freakin 18 --.--" she loves that question because maybe somebody want to propose me and go for merisik. hahahaha but mom, please lemme look for my spouse by myself.

i love my name, Jannah. there was a guy trying to know more about me, he was like, "hey are you Jannah (paradise) ? because i wanna get into you," that islamic pick up line just made me laughed my ass off,ohh and i didnt accept him because my father will kick me in the air if i do. search for Allah before searching for your spouse. <3 Allah knows the best.

im easy fall in love with somebody, like seriously everytime i see somebody(s) tweet con, or dp something or maybe walking pass infront of me, and the guy wearing jubah, muka suci, comel,. hahahah

when i see cute boys, i will renung dia orang sampai sebelah mata pancit

that's y i love to follow my father to the mosque every friday nights at Setiawangsa, you can see so many Tahfiz guys, and i am melting at the shoe racks watching them. hahahah but i dont forget my purpose to be there, pergi sana sebab nak dengar ceramah, tapi sebelum tu nak cuci mata lahhh ayahhh.

but we have to remember to lower our gaze. they were too cute, but Allah is infinity cuter than them. oh yeah

every time i decide to have a boyfriend, my siblings and my mom will laugh at me. my father? well hell no. he will reject my opinion before i manage to open my mouth. my father was a strict man, when he is getting older, he is easily be tame and nice. hahaha, i still remember, when the first time i have a phone, he warns me not to have a boyfriend and no boys in my contact list or he will burn my phone alive. 

i kinda jealous where my cousins have their own partner. i was standing, and crying inside because im not pretty like they do. when we gather, we will talk about our life and boys. oh come on, tak de benda lain ke T.T they all have boyfriend, and me, mmm i am the last virgin. they gain boyfriend since they were 12 something, and im 18, but still have nothing. hahaha, 

sometimes i have to lie,i told them that i have a boyfriend too.

tapi Allah nak tunjukkan yg berbohong tu tak elok, jadi ditakdirkan abang aku lalu kat sebelah aku bila aku cakap macam tu. and he was like, " who the hell wants her, she dont even float in the water (fat) "

my brother is a butthead sometimes, this make me sad guys. i am not fat. i guess. hahaha, seriously guys, please dont lie, telling that you have a boyfriend when you dont even have one. Allah trying to show me that i am wrong. this situation happened because He wants me to realize that I have Him always by my side. just be truthful, it is worth to be honest. and please dont cosider yourself as a lonely person when you dont have a partner, nuhhh uhhhh. Allah save a perfect one who deserve your big heart. :)

susah nak cari laki kalau asyik ikut cakap orang, itu tak boleh, ini tak sesuai. my mom gonna make sure i will get marry before 28. --.--

 my mom doesnt care who i will choose as long as i am happy and that guy will guide me to the straight path and increasing my imaan, bring me to Jannah, have a big house, big car, private island. ohhh that's too much. As long as the guy that i choose have special link between him and Him, im happy. <3 owhh, tak payah lah yang hensem hensem sangat. nanti orang asyik nak sambar je, dapat mcm Kim Woo Bin pun dah okey dah. hahaha

lolz, aku tak minat kpop. aku tahu mcm gitu gitu je. 

my lil sis and i adore the same guy, haishhhh. it's getting worst as she mocked me " who wants a girl like you anyway ", idgf about it.i know that she was joking. i am a fabulus unicorn. everybody love me. i dont know whether she hates me or nope, im being a freakin bij everytime i am with her, she hates when we have to be together,

last night, when we are otw to a restaurant somewhere in pekan Rawang, suddenly Yuna's song is on air. how i love the Rescue song, the beat is like a jungle beat. so i was like getting crazy, and i told my mom this song is Yuna's, and my father turn the volume up. i started getting crazy and dance like an african child at the back seat. my lil sis, she makes the 'wth' face. oh how i loved to annoy my lil sis. 

the contexts of love is very wide. it's not only for your spouse. the best love that you will ever gain is the love between you and Allah. He never disappoints to those who really looking for His mercy and His love. His love is infinity and zero contradiction.

 if you cant find your spouse yet, that's mean you have to mend your love between you and Him, and your parents. yeah, du'a(prayer) of a mother to her God is like a bullet that shot from the ground into the sky, and always able go through the heavens layer. our parents du'a is powerful, so dont waste your love to a stranger guys, love them before they leave you to another life :)

The Screwed entry --.--

Assalamualaikum

im gonna leave this blog, but just for a while because i got PLKN in this April at Selama, Perak.

 i was hoping for Sarawak. aku baru je nak bajet bajet jet lag pergi kem naik flight. hahahaa, But afrina make fun of me, "ain't nobody got jet lag while goin to sarawak, hahaha ", afrina been to Sarawak for so many time because she lived there before. but who cares anyway niggs. hahah

some of my friends got group 3, that's not the problem, the problem is how to change the societies preception and their thoughts about group 3, they like to scare their kids ass off and the youth about PLKN group 3. hey listen, Allah choose them to be in group 3 for a reason mannnn, He doesnt put them in that particular group for fun, maybe some might say "kenapa aku kne campak group 3? takut siaaa, mesti ada kesalahan ni T.T" , bila check check balik, mmm memang takde perubahan. ke group 3 lah kau kena pergi. hahaha, most of the budak baik got this dilemma. think positive babe, if you know that your are nice, you never done wrong or get into trouble in school, Allah choose you to be in that group because maybe you can change the other participants from other bad ass school. friends can change friends. that is the way of life as a teenage. just think positive mann.  Allah never leave the good ones, He will always protect you. 

enough with the PLKN, my iphone 3gs just broke down last week.

Ya Allah i love taht phone so much.

that is the most expensive that my father ever bought for me T,T there is some idiot setting begging me to upgrade the software to ios 6. after i download it, the phone restart, it keep on restart again and again until the battery kong. huhuhuu, and i was like what the hell is happening to u bij! wake up! i love you. so i decide to restore it back just like new from the factory using itunes in my lappy, but it takes time babe, not an hour but 30 hours nigga. i just left my lappy with the phone just like that., because it doesnt worth waiting laaaa, so i go to sleep and let the lappy do his things, 

at 4 a.m. i was awake., i dunno. i just awake by myself with Allah permission, then i saw my father standing. he always wake up for qiamulail anyway, but he stood still in that time and stares at my lappy for a while.

the way he stand, hahaha. he wear kain pelikat and clothes. he's not nude like that boy above. haha

he stares at the laptop and nagged about it to my sleeping mom. he was like " why the hell my daughter sleep infront the laptop without turning it off? " my mom replied, "u just turn it off laaaa, it wasting the electric bills" . well im still on the floor lying, i decide to not make a move because my mom will ask me about it and hit my ass because wasting the electric bills. but im not closing my eyes, i just watch my father keep standing still, my eyes is sepet. they will never know whether am i asleep or what. because the size of my eyes when i open it and when im asleep is just the same. but my father keep on standing and stare to it, after that he spoke up " mmm, i dont know how to turn it off ", hahah. i was about to laugh but it's kinda not nice dude, so he just turn off the plug. and go for his qiamulail. 

that morning, i gave up. i just leave the phone just like that. since my phone broke down, i having a fight with my lil sis like almost everyday because we chase for our mom's phone. kira dapat check whatsapp dengan we chat pun jadilaahhh T.T

that feeling when i approach my mom's phone earlier than my sister. sorry lil sis, you lose

that kind of situation last for a week where my mom bought a new phone for me after i got back home from ceramah KPP (driving lesson). she bought me lenovo. just a cheap phone. that phone is hecka slow mannn, but Alhamdulillah, thanks mom. as long as i can connect with afrina and my other niggs friends then its okay :)

i was like ohh mom, u dont have to buy me new phone, as long as i have you im blessed, hahahaa

my father decide to bring my iphone to be repaired. my mom doesnt like to repair things, she likes to throw away all the junks rather than repair it. but the guys, is a jimat person. not like tha ladies. my father turned a deaf ear, and go to the phone shop next day

on the next day, when my parents arrived home from work, my father approach my lil sis and give my iphone to her. i can see his sad face. so i sat in the kitchen, and i ask him about my iphone problems. he told me and just keep scratching his head. i was like, what happen to my father. well he told me, repairing that phone is like buying a new one. after listen to that words, my mom starts to nagg like always because it is kinda wasting money. but my father didnt finish his words yet, he told that, the repairing cost 50 ringgit, and he got love letter from JPJ and the Police. maybe he is so excited to repair my phone sampai main hentam parking motor. hahaha, saman jpj 100, saman polis 100. i was laughing hardly with my mom. its not that rude because my father laugh about it too so, we just laugh la. 

i dunno what to write for this entry because i kinda screwed up, with the PLKN, with the SPM result, the driving lesson, IPTA. maybe i will get my ass in the IPTA for the second intake because my PLKN ends about at the end of june. i dont wanna be afrina's junior. uhhh uhhh, thats not gonna happen in my unicorn wurldz. hahaha. so thats all. i have to feed my kitties in front of the house. goodbye then, Assalamualaikum. peace <3

Just hold on, it's gonna be okay

Assalamualaikum,

im writing this special for a friend of mine,

    so, everyone facing their hardships everyday.
Tested by Allah is a blessing if you only know. everything happen for a reason. people walk into your life even if it's just for a while,you can't call it as coincidence. it is something that have been written in your destiny.
same goes to your hardships.

Allah dah tetapkan apa yang kau akan lalui. larilah sampai ke lubang cacing pun, bina lah tembok mengelilingi

kau sekuat mana pun, if He said "kun faya kun", memang tak boleh lari

tapi aku bukannya nak takut kan kau. aku akan sentiasa doakan kau dan yang terbaik untuk kau,
 insyaallah penyakit ni boleh sembuh


aku berkawan dengan kau dah lama dahhhh :) aku mana pernah tengok kau sedih,kalau ada pun tak lama, pastu kau girang girang semula.

i love you guysssssss

when you tell me that you might going to die, and you afraid that you'll have to leave your parents,
wait, hold on a sec.
aku pun akan mati jugak. kau kena ingat tu. aku yang sihat wal a'fiat ni pun bila bila masa je boleh mati. semua kat dunia ni tak kekal. so take a deep breath and calm down
aku rasa kau tak perlu bimbang dengan masalah ni.
macam aku cakap, Allah letak kau kat hujung tebing yang penuh dengan kesusahan. percayakan Dia sebab dua perkara akan berlaku, samada Allah akan tangkap dan selamatkan kau atau Dia akan ajar kau cara untuk terbang. best kan jalan hidup ni ? so put your 100% trust on Him
jika kau rasa Allah timpakan musibah kat kau sebagai tanda Dia benci kat kau,
cuba kau fikir balik

Allah turunkan penyakit sebab Dia nak maafkan segala dosa dosa kau yang lalu.
it is a blessings from your creator too :)

Allah tak jadikan air minuman kita masin disebabkan dosa dosa kita, we are blesssed, tak gitu ?
aku tak rasa Allah bagi kau sakit sebab dia nak tengok kau menderita,
ini sebab dia sayangkan kau, Dia rindu kan kau

see see? <3

             and every suffering, there's hidden mercy in it.

kalau kau rasa apa yang kau hadapi ni susah,
watch this
Bersabarlah, Yang Allah Simpan Lebih Baik, by Habib Ali Zaenal
                              http://youtu.be/qtHOC4gq8HI

aku ada pernah bgtau kau kan yang kekadang, penyakit kita tak ada penawarnya kecuali diri kita sendiri. 

kau tak boleh 100% bergantung kat ubat, tapi kena yakin yang kau mampu lawan :)

tak percaya? well time dulu, aku depressed. aku kemurungan tahap gaban sebab aku, memang ada banyak masalah. aku terlalu berfikir sampai satu haritu, aku dah explode. sebab tu lah aku tanak kau bimbang pasal apa yang kau akan hadapi sebab aku takut kau akan jadi macam aku

sometimes things are not bad as they seem, try not to overthink. - afiq mohammad :)

then, aku start kena gastric. bukan gastric biasa biasa, sebab bila aku stress, dia punya gas tu akan naik dan aku akan semput gila gila.tak boleh bernafas lah derr. aku rushed ke hospital banyak kali. keluar masuk keluar masuk hospital. sampai nurse yang hantar makanan kat pesakit pesakit tu jadi kawan aku. kita orang tengok tv bersama, having jokes. hahahah. aku masuk dewan bedah dua kali. best, dengan lampu torchlight dia yang besar hadap muka aku, dia scop. maksudnya, dia masukkan camera dalam usus aku. twice, dua kali nokkk. and then sejak haritu, aku dah tak boleh gelak sebab sakit sangat perut aku, nak bersin,and batuk lagi lah azab woi, sebab rasa mcm perut kau kena tarik sampai kat otak. aku tak boleh makan. kau boleh agak betapa kurus nya aku masa tu sbb aku hanya boleh minum air dan masuk air, sampai kepala aku pun dah macam masuk air. aku nak jalan kena bongkok. sebab dalam perut aku dah tegang sangat sbb time scop tu doktor tu korek sikit diding usus aku and amik sample. aku rasa perut aku dah rosak. kau tak percaya? cuba kau tanya afrina, berapa lama aku tak datang sekolah agama. doktor pulak asyik bagi pain killer je. 

i cried. what is exactly happen to me? 

aku dah tak larat asyik hidup mcm ni, jadi aku reset balik diri aku. aku cari dari mana yang aku salah. dan aku cuba perbetulkan hubungan aku dengan Allah, mungkin sebab aku dah lama tinggalkan Dia. hubungan dengan Dia tak beberapa nak betul, so aku mula balik dari awal. dan, ye yakin, aku yakin aku mampu lawan semua ni. Allah akan kasi apa yang kau mintak jika kau bersungguh sungguh buat, dan sabar tu penting, sebab aku jatuh beberapa kali dan Alhamdulillah aku tak terus baring dan golek golek, aku bangun balik sebab aku betul betul nak lawan penyakit pelik ni. that's all. 

 kalau kau tengok cerita cerita those yg jadi breast cancer survivor, dia orang time tu lawan habis habisan sampai ada yang kne stage 3 dan lebih teruk daripada tu, tetiba cancer dia *poooffff* dah tak ada, sebab kenapa ? sebab Allah sentiasa dengan orang yang sabar dan bersungguh sungguh. 

jadi sabar ye syu :)

perempuan ni, Allah ciptakan dengan sangat istimewa. nampak je lembik, boleh dipijak, boleh disodok macam tu je, tapi setabah mana pun hati seseorang manusia tu, tetap tak boleh lawan ketabahan hati seorang wanita (kecuali para anbia la). sebab, siapa orang pertama yang syahid di jalan Allah? Sumaiyah babe. siapa yang bermati matian kasi harta bantu nabi Muhammad tegakkan Islam sampaikan dia minta apabila dia mati, jual lah tulang belulang dia jika itu dapat menegakkan syiar Islam? Saidatina Khadijah babe.

kau mampu hadapi semua ni syu, kau nampak je kecik, tapi kau tu hati besar :)

walaupun kau tak sure apa yang akan jadi, just keep on holding to Him <3

insyaallah i will be there for you and be your shoulder to cry :)

this entry, i made it special for you syu :)

aku nampak macam ala ala ustazah untuk kali ni, ye la sebab aku asyik melawak dengan kau tiap tiap hari pun tak elok jugak, just spread the da'wa where ever you are even it is just a word, well who knows maybe that word will change someone's life. it's hard to find a real friend that will stuck with you forever. so when you have one, please don't waste it.

spread the words :)

okay lah , aku nak makan 

assalamualaikum, peaceeee <3

How to build a love story between : you and Allah (streets of da'wah)

Assalamualaikum

love.
does everyone searching for love that last forever.? same goes to me.
as you know, world doesn't last forever, same goes to our problems, and the people, so how will you search for a true love that stays and won't change even a bit ?


the answer is this

it's between you and Him (Allah).

Allah is the word 'God' in arabic. The Creator of the universe, the Holy Provider, The King

aku, dulu Allah pernah bagi pinjam bagaimana rasanya kemanisan iman. the sweetness of iman(faith). tapi aku tak reti jaga dengan betul, dan lama kelamaan hilang sebab aku dibuai nafsu dunia. dan tengah cari balik sekarang ni :) hehehe 

it is the best feeling that i never taste in my whole life

because when i feel the sweetness of iman, i don't have to worry for this dunya(world). because i got the link between me and my creator. and this world is old, the hereafter(akhirah) is the place and life that last forever. Allah had told us, this worldly life is just a game.

there was a time that i am belonging to die, just because i want to see Him and His habib, Prophet Muhammad (pbuh).

i am belonging to die? it is the feel that i am not afraid to die. yeahhh, mesti korang mcm "apa? kau nak sangat mati? !" bukan mcm tu akhi, ukhti, akhta, ukhtu ku sekalian. it cant be describe by words. sebab rasa rindu sangat sangat tu memang tak dapat dinafikan. aku cemburu gila bila dengar para ulama' bermimpi jumpa dengan nabi Muhammad dan dia orang menangis sebelum dia orang sempat nak mulakan cerita. 

i cry in every of my prayers, i missed him so bad

ye la, Prophet Muhammad is the best man who walk on earth. the best to his wives. and even his enemies just cant believe that he is the man that they have to against and kill? the enemies said, "this man(prophet Muhammad) doesnt have the face of a traitor or even a liar. so y do we have to against him ? "

Allah ciptakan para nabi ni hensem hensem belaka. Allah tak cipta nabi kepala botak, perut buncit. tidak sama sekali. Allah cipta nabi nabi dengan sempurna. muka semua molek molek belake. wajah nabi Muhammad bercahaya sehingga Aisyah r.a boleh kutip balik jarum dia yang terjatuh di dalam bilik yang hanya ditemani sebuah pelita di waktu malam bila nabi Muhammad masuk dalam bilik tersebut. 

and muka nabi Muhammad ni kalau perempuan2 tengok, sodok lah hati, tikam lah hati dia orang bertubi tubi, mereka tidak akan dapat rasa sakitnya sebab dibius oleh ketampanan nabi Muhammad saw. 

dah tu, kalau Nabi Muhammad tu paling hensem, paling baik, kekasih Allah pulak tu, kenapa kita duduk pi kejar cinta manusia, harta benda, dan cinta yang tak pasti?  

nabi Muhammad yang hensem tu dah terang terang sayang kat kita, dia rindukan kita, sebut "ummatku

! ummatku! ummatku!". dia bimbang kan kita, ada ke orang yang risau kan kita selain baginda dan mak ayah kita? tapi kenapa kita buat tak peduli je? selawat bila time maulidur rasulje, hari hari lain mcm haremmmm. 

 okay okay, enough with the nags. tolong lah sayang kekasih Allah <3

how to create a love story between you and Allah

? first of all. search where your heart is.

by performing apa anak anak? ya, solat :) force yourself to solat. find Him in your solat. go find where your heart is. but dont take it so hard, just go with the flow. 

the meaning of force yourself to solat is for those yang asyik tak cukupsolat 5 waktu. so force yourself. lengkapkan. even though, you are forced, day by day, night by night you will be willing to do it for the sake of Allah , insyaallah. 

Always remember that, Allah is very close to you when you are in sujood. sujud., sujud

. 

so make dua'(pray) for yourself. ask Him to guide you, feel your dua', you have to confident that Allah hears you. because dua' in sujood is precious. 

 insyaallah if He gives you the taste of imaan,i bet you akan rasa yang solat fardhu pun takkan puas., mesti nak solat lagi, kadang kadang aku rasa solat sunat pun tak puas, so advance sikit dengan buat qiam. sebab aku rasa, solat ni bukan sekadar suruhan, tapi kau tengah berdialog betul betul dengan Dia. aku akan rasa humble gila.,and you are talking to the owner the day of judgement, the Malik (the King) 

serious punya cakap

tolong jangan sesekali rasa kalau kita ni banyak dosa, kita tak mampu nak dapat rasa kemanisan iman, hey remember this, Allah akan kasi kepada siapa siapa yang berusaha untuk dapatkannya.

 even orang yang lebih jahat daripada kita, Allah mampu sedarkan dia dengan sekelip mata. kenapa pulak kita tak boleh yakin dengan diri kita? jadi bersihkan hati mulai sekarang, Allah sayang kepada orang yang sentiasa bertaubat.

second, apa dia anak anak? yes, read,

yes iqra'. the first word by the Jibril/Gabriel to prophet Muhammad (pbuh)

iqra' bacalah. 

what do you have to read exactly ? 

of course the Qur'an. the words from your God, the Creator of the heavens and earth. the book that contains infinity of knowledge.

so read. masalah orang islam sekarang ni cuma mereka malas membaca, yang rajinnya, orang2 islam muslimat membeli novel novel cinta lah, ini aku tujukan kepada kakak kakak yang suka membaca novel2 cinta dan sedang menunggu imam imam mereka. hahahah, duhhh jodoh itu sesuatu yang belum tentu, tapi mati itu pasti. so apa yang korang patut buat dan cari sekarang? tanya lah diri sendiri. 

when i was in my high school, i was so amazed with my friend. she is a christian, and she spent her recess by reading bible in the class. i am so ashamed. seriously, i do have Qur'an, but y i didnt spent my time reading it? and there was a time, the report card day, my friend, Joan, she is indian and a christian. 

her father read the bible while he was waiting for his turn to meet our class teacher. he is a priest anyway. 

im so amazed with them. tapi kenapa kita yang muslim ni susah sangat nak baca, nak pupuk semangat cinta Al Qur'an? 

i dont want to nag so much, just read the Qur'an.,

This is what they called Romantic, I love you to Allah <3

sad? sick with this world? remedy for health? tired to struggle and so on? get your Qur'an now and read. 10 good deeds rewarded for every single letter :) and it can be your Hujjah (its kinda like a lawyer that defend you) for you in the grave and on the day of judgement.

there's lots of thing that i want to share. this part is not the end. there will be part II in progress. insyaallah i will post it asap. 

dont be sad. Allah is with you :)

Assalmualaikum :)

ps: please correct me if i am wrong, peace yawwww

mah niggz friends :)

Assalamualaikum

waiting for Spm result is a damn bored if you dont have a job to fill your 4 months gap after spm exam.
aku lah tu sebagai contoh :)

i miss my friends damn much
(secondary and high school friends)

my elementary school turned out so bad. it is the worst place that i have been in my life so far.mad teachers, aggressive,racist, yeah just name it. i do have friends,but not real friends. they will appear in front of me when they need something, and left me a lovely shit when i need them so much. being bullied is something that i have to swallow everyday. so i decide to take my ass out from that school
i got transferred to another school, it's kinda awkward for the first time.
and it turned out awesome. and i started to make new friends, they are so hilarious and they also love to make sarcasms about politics, the teachers are so sportin, fun, and concern about their students. T.T i love them so much

after that, i went to secondary school

the first day of my secondary school, i sit next to damia. she is the closest friend in that particular time because she moved to Johor later. well she was my classmate from my latest elementary school. ohhh lupaaa, fatin pun ada. mmmm and hanif, sarmila and afiq. but hanif ,sarmila and afiq masuk kelas pertama. me and damia in the second class. pastu terjumpa najah , diana, farhana. hahahaha

everyone knows that i have a soulmate named mae. ahahahah she is my true bbf since i was form one.
the first talk between me and her is about asking for liquid or eraser, mmmm i dont remember that much.
after that we talk talk and talk. she is like a doraemon, because she have everything in her pocket, bags. then we start to kamching, go for break together in the canteen. and started to make a group. it is between me, damia and mae. hayat wanna join us, but we were like " aint nobody want you nigga.' hahahahah because hayat, she got the mouth that never sleeps. every time she talks, i was like "damn son, where do you buy those batteries for your mouth" and mae said  " she was born like that laaaa". mae knows hayat very well because hayat is her friend since they were in wombs. their moms know each other. mae and hayat play with each other when they were young, goin to the same kindergarten, elementary school and end up with the same high school. hahaha they were meant to be.

this is a picture of my  lady-in-waiting. har har har, the yellow is mae, the black with pinky shoes is amy <3

damia, me and mae are librarians, so the boys call us the Digi's (yg sim kad tu. dulu famous gila iklan yang " ku bersamamu" XD ), because librarian uniform are yellow. --.--
after damia moved to another state, me and mae made it to the first class in form 2 (2 Amanah). same goes to hayat. hahahaha ohhhh lupa, i have qamilia, hana, mmm tak ingat lahhh
when the first time we step into the first class, the kids in the class were so quite. because genius student, they dont talk a lot and spent their time completing homework in class. duhhhhh aint nobody got time for that. i dont think that i will survive through the day without talking and being loud. mmmm, after a week, the class turned upside down, so freakin noisy, maybe because hanif started to made fun of The Queen of Mouth (hayat). it's kinda a bad idea to mess with her, but hanif have the guts. he is a guy anyway that full with sarcastic idea. so it's fun watching them fight everyday


and then i met atikah dollah. and she become my besties, she is the school athlete and a prefect.sometimes she loves to mock me, gosshhh, but i take it easy because she is the one that always calm my ass down if i were in trouble. she is my Bob Marley.she motivates me always and i end up with success and achievement because of her words. every time im in panic, she was like 'there's nothing to be afraid about, the world doesnt last forever, same goes to your problem. just smoke weed. hahaha
her 95% problem consist 'HOMEWORK'. she didnt finish her homework on time.she will force me to give her my books. and i was like ' heyyyy, chill down. world wont last forever, same goes to your problem har har har har " and she was like"deyyyyyy just give me your book!"

 and then khadijah siheab :) huhuhuh, this little lady she likes to make jokes and laugh everyday,she is the happiest girl that i ever met and she considers me as her bank, every day and every time she will be like "jannnnnn, nak singgit ", "jannnn belanja lah akuuuu" --.-- kesian pulak aku dengar so aku bagi je lah, she died in november 2012. 21st november rasanya. i just cant believe it. i dont know what was happening. it's kinda weird when people expressed their condolence on her facebook wall about 10 in the morning. i thought it is just a "november fools day". and when i call my friends and talked about it, diaorang dah sampai hospital pun. aku tak mampu cakap apa, and cried alone.

the cat hand is showing khadijah. May Allah save you from the hell fire and shows you His mercy. aamiin.hujug tu atikah dollah yg muka awek ganas:) just right beside me :)

 pastu i have afiq azli.. he is cute tho. with his spike hair. i still remember when he was 12. hahah, so freakin chubby. our birth date like almost, the same. but he went out from his mother's tummy one day earlier than me. im 15th july and he is 14th july. we talk a lot about
celebrities especially lady gaga. i adore lady gaga so much until i had enough and puking rainbows. sometime afiq is a little bit annoying, and there was a time i ignore him because in my dream, he killed mae .  please dont question me about it because my mind was not 100% passed to the level of puberty that time.hahaha i think that he is special because he forgives. i agree because atikah said so :) and he forgives me for my dumbness harharhar

atikah and afiq meow meow :)

after that, i met my half . amy, yes amy syarina ahmad zuhairi. oh yeahhh, she's damn pretty, even though her big nose trying to fit in, amy is the only chicken chop friend, other than my belacan, nasi goreng kampung and tempoyak rendang friends.hahahah. she got her american style and sexy, she loves white guys i guess.tapi tak tahu pulak kalau dia ada minat nigga nigga. mmmmm, she understands my weird thoughts, well most of my thoughts. she's lovely. we often go to the tesco, having pizza during the last day of school and baling baling tepung. i love you bae. i dunno what to say about her, because she's just nice tho. nothing is wrong with her. im not telling that she is perfect, but she is more than perfect. some might hate her because she is pretty yet sexy. i think that even though the way she dress is kinda burning my small eyes, the way she act westernly(haha wujud ke perkataan tu) , i always reminding myself that i cant judge her religion and what is inside her heart, maybe she is 100000000000000000 times better than me :)

insyaallah i will pray the best for you baeeee. 

 selepas ituu,,, mmmm ahhhh Azyan ku. my little kiddo :) azyan was an underdog when she was form 2. she entered my class after mid term. she is genius tho. i love to talk with her even though it's just a stupid matter, she just accept it. i like her, she laughs and reacts to my joke, even though i dont even get my own jokes. she got that polite attitude.pijak semut pun tak mati, silap silap semut angkat balik kaki azyan.we enjoy hash browns and makanan canteen so much. hihihihi and i give macaroons. haritu dia makan, pastu dia marah aku sebab dia tak ingat yang dia tengah puasa. hahahahaha she doesnt talk so much because she dont even know what to talk about. that's why im here right by her side to encourage her to speak. she is so special, she motivates me and helped me with my maths because i got E during mid term exam and walla! i got A for my pmr :) Alhamdulillah xie xie azyan  :)

okay then, mmm Addeena. hahahaha, anak pak azzudin ni underdog jugak tapi masa form 3 la. bila dah nak exam pmr baru dia nak muncul. Im not into her for the first time we met. it's not the same as amy and azyan does. it takes time to know her. i never thought that we'll become so close and closer and i made her as my besties. most of my form 4 life, her mom sent me home. hihihihi, ye laa auntie. i dah tolong teman kan anak you sampai tersengguk sengguk kat pondok SAB tu. lolz tak delah makcik. saya sedih tengok anak makcik termenung sorang sorang. lullzzzz, she likes to talk like hayat, but she talks about her family, how she observe people, and so on. duhhhh this girl is weird yet naughty. hahahah, her mom is nice. belanja mcm mcm kalau tumpang dia.tu yg naik sampai 60 lebih kg berat tu.ada satu masa tu ayah dia pulak yang amik balik sekolah, mae pulak takde. takkan lah nak naik bas sorang2 der. so nana force me to jump in je, and i was like mmmm, yelaaa. her father mmm, he just drove to my house without needed to tell him the direction. i was kinda amazed because i never met her father before. that is the first time he meet me and he knows my house?. and then i started too became suspicious with her family and i asked her once " mcm mana ayah kau boleh tahu? korang satu family kalau boleh nak stalk aku eh? " she just replied "entah. aku pun tak tahu mcm mana dia boleh tahu. (sambil addeena mengukir senyuman yang menyeramkan)" goshhhh, --.--

okay last... Afrina. hihihihihihi my oreo, my bij, my niggga. i stop rite here. talking about her is a story that wont end. she is the longest story, but i want her to know that YOU ARE AWESOME babe :) thanks for being with me and thanks for walkin in my life chapter 

Hahahhaha, mesti kau bengang kan ? 

you are so hot nigga. hahahaahah

okay thats all for now. im sorry afrina, i know that you are almost excited tadi, hahahahahahahahahh

goodnite my catssss

i need some sleep too. Assalamualaikum 

cat is in the air.

Assalamualaikum, 

cats. i love cats
i like their paws
the 'prrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr' sound is so sexy

Allah azza wa jal ciptakan kehidupan kucing tu fit dengan kehidupan manusia.
that's y you can see kuciang(kampar accent) berkeliaran kat kaki kaki manusia, comel kan?
kalau dia nak makan, dia gesel gesel kat kaki kau. kalau kau tendang dia, dia pancut kat kau.
every time you open your pc, they will sleep on the keyboard. or maybe play with the mouse --.--

kucing ni lawak. aku tatau kenapa. tapi memang aku suka

kalau yang garang tu, dengan ekspresi muka palat dia tu
kalau yang hyperactive tu jangan cakap lah, mcm mabuk ketum

yang ni, aku tengok mcm afrina. hahahah mcm sesuai gila dengan rupa dan attitude dia yang mcm apetah XD

i have 13 cats when i was 15.  boleh buat jadi pekerja company aku :)

it's like a party for me and a kind of torture for my mother since she dislike cats but she can deal with a cockroach --,-- nobody in the house can chillin when there's a cockroach flying except for my mom. she could catch the flying cockroach and scare everyone ass in the house

i let my cats free, i just let them be
and i teach them to behave nicely and discipline

it doesnt matter anyway when it comes to feeding time
i just shake a bottle full with friskies, kucing aku yang merayau sampai ke hujung kampung pun boleh dengar,
lintang pukang dia lari balik rumah.
dalam 13 ekor mcm tu datang berkerumun kat aku, ada pernah sekali tu dengan aku aku sekali tumbang sebab kucing2 tu panjat badan aku, serang dari belakang.
kadang kadang, ada jugak kucing jiran2 menyebuk tumpang makan sekali


the worst part is their poo poo.
my family and i kinda embarrassed when visitors came to our house
the cats pooped in the vase. but i can see the flowers grow beautifully, so i consider that cat poop is a fertilizer
so my father bought 2 story cage worth for 250 ringgit.
it's like a mini zoo when all the cats gather in a cage
ada yang panjat besi , ada kucing tingkat atas terberak kena kucing bawah, sakit otak aku woi. haahahaa

my cat reduce and reducing.most of them die, kena lenyek dek kereta
sekarang tinggal satu je yang masih bertahan
dengan kepakaran dan tunjuk ajar yang aku bekalkan kepada dia
dia mampu hidup sehingga sekarang. dah 6 tahun rasanya dia hidup
her name is jeppri

her first name was kurap, but my fathaaa just dont like it, it's kinda curse the cat to get kurap. i call her jeppri. sebab aku minat Jepp sepah . hahaha

okayyy niggaaaa. that's all . i got so many things to do. with the kids, the house, erghhhhhhh im so depressed 

selamat tinggal mabuk ketum semua :) hahah

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